10-18-2023, 04:08 PM
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I crave it.
That first tinge of the warmth that bathed across my skin. That sensation of utter relief, the weight that was lifted off me. I crave to feel that again, feel you in the same way Amada, feel that utter feeling of bliss on my skin. To be able to scream & laugh & breakdown, even in front of everyone, from the sheer joy you gave me when you graced my skin, when you revealed to me the truth.
I crave it.
Your perfect TOUCH upon my face, my lips, my arms, my body. The kiss of the sun upon me so vibrant that it burnt, that it made my eyes ache, that my hand reached out to try to hide myself from you, yet you refused. You refused to not allow yourself to be seen, slayer of all that is wicked, kind mother that I shall never truly have, you know my faults, my failings, can see right through me knowing me to be hollow.
You don't let me wallow.
I crave it.
I would do anything to feel your pure unbridled love upon my skin once again. Feel the sensation for the first time again, feel you tenderly caress every bit of white, every bit of white that allows you to burn me so harshly, to make my skin grow burnt with your affection. I crave it, I crave you, I crave everything that you have to give me & I know that I do not deserve what you grant me. That if I was before you, maybe you would feel such a deep revulsion as I tried to grab you, squeeze you, hug you, try to cry when I cannot & scream as loud as I can.
I love you, I crave you, Amada.
Knowing you can never return these affections from this hollow joke of a creature.